14th May 2010

Dear God,

As your creation I just can ask and beg You..
In this moment, my mentality is gone..
I have had bad dreams in these few weeks.. For many times, I've dreamed for committing suicide..
I don't know, Ya Allah, Ya Robbi..
I'm afraid with the examination result..
I don't know what to do for getting the worst case..
I haven't had any plans, yet..
Yes, God, I do fasting..
I hope, spiritually, it can gain my confidence back and purify my heart from bad things.
God, please give me a chance..
I haven't been a some one whom my family and my lovely one proud to..
I haven't been some one who's useful to my religion, state, and nation.
Ya Hayyu, Ya Qoyyum, Ya Robbal Alamen, Ya Allah.. Please give me your miracle..